AIR

Two...of my three sons♥♥
Death is forever…it matters not who you are, what you’ve done, how much money you have, what you gave or what you took. It’s just forever…eternal. It is one of the hardest things I have ever encountered in my life, the loss of my child.

A mother’s job is to love and protect her children. But when death knocks you have not the ability to protect and the love flows from a place that is shattered. It changes who you are, your balance. You have no footing, you don’t have the ability to grasp what has really happened. When you come to the place where you begin to think clearly, you don’t have a clue how to put together your life without your child.

Death has changed me in a way I never imagined. I have become a person I never envisioned. I am not who I used to be and the hard part is I don’t know if I can ever get back that part of me that I loved and cherished. I reach and I grasp into thin air. It’s just not there. My circle has grown smaller and my heart feels empty. I don’t bubble with joy and it breaks my heart in a whole new way. I just want someone somewhere to assure me I am really going to be me again, because today, I have no idea who I am…

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  1. i love you. you circle may no longer include me but i understand fully and i love you with my whole heart. i wish i knew of a comforting something to say. But William is about to be taken from me again, and if i wasn’t shattered as well, i’d be a whole lot wiser. Bless you Dot. xoxo

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