A “peace sign” does not promote hate…ignorance promotes hate!
PEACE
BLACK
I am pondering getting myself a black rose tattoo…any thoughts?
Gloved
As I was pondering the whole Michael Jackson death and memorial…I have a few thoughts I must share regarding this strange but very talented man. He was a very cute child, the reason why he would distort his face over the years was his way of masking the pain he felt deep within. He really needed a friend to tell him, “Enough, your face is caving in“! But when you have money and you are paying every ones way, no one is going to give up the truth, they’d rather you look like a train wreck then be honest. Maybe he would have appreciated someone being honest with him for once in his life.
He was truly a great talent. Hands down the boy could dance and sing. He was never a truly happy person, therefore all the money in the world could not bring him the joy he so longed for. I do believe his children did bring him happiness, but to what extent they have been damaged by the strange world they have been raised in is yet to be seen.
Al Sharpton is a MORON! He made a statement something to the fact MJ had a lot to do with Obama being elected President! Are you kidding me! Al is about 4 crayons short of a full box! President Obama is the President because he is qualified for the job, not because Michael Jackson can moonwalk! The two are unrelated on every level imaginable! Al Sharpton needs to keep him mouth closed. He is much more entertaining when we just have to look at his hair.
I don’t really know if he did or did not molest children. He didn’t molest mine that I am sure of, because I don’t care how famous you are, my children are not spending the night with you. Do people think that just because someone is a “star” bad things can not happen? In reality, bad things are more likely to happen with someone in that group as they are so out of touch with reality they have no boundaries and think everything they do is okay regardless. We as society have made this happen for them because we have the whole star worship going on today! I do know that what ever brain dead parent would allow their child to spend the night unattended at the Neverland Ranch gets the Darwin award for the rest of their lives! No one in their right mind would let their young boy spend the night with a grown ass man and sleep in his bed…come on now…Fucktard is how I would describe that parent!
The people of LA should not have to pay for the circus they are calling a memorial held at the Staples Center…end of discussion! The family is responsible hands down, no further need to address the matter. Hell, I’m not an elected official and I can figure that one out!
Those three beautiful children, their lives are screwed from here on out! Why would they leave those children to live with his parents? Because they did such a stellar job in raising their first round of kids! Stupid, stupid and more stupid!
I am very sad for the children, in the end they are the ones who will suffer. Kids deserve happiness and stability, get them the hell away from the Jackson family is all I have to say about that!
May MJ rest in peace. I do hope where ever he is they can do something about that nose.
FLOAT
Like paint peeling, my life is peeling away layer by layer. I don’t understand everything going on nor do I wish to. I just pray that as the layers come off, it becomes a smooth surface to be repainted again with a beautiful new coat of bright blue paint. I may not live from day to day as I should and I may not make every moment of every day count…there is just not energy for such anymore. I do live my life with passion coming from the inside out, burning like a single candle in a room full of darkness. Nothing will ever come my way to break the spell life has cast upon me. As I toss myself into the sea of a new beginning, I hope to not sink to deep, but to simply float above the surface. Life, it never just passes you by, it always takes you with it.
FADE
As I watch our friendship fade, I am reminded all we have been through. We have climbed mountains I never imagined I could climb. We have been to the depth of the sea not knowing if we would ever surface. But as with all things in this life, this too shall end. I will always remember and I will always care…but not at the expense of my soul.
Your life will go on and when you come to that crossroads, you will have to draw on your own strength as mine will be far away blowing in the breeze. I need peace and I need to know I am not walking this path alone. When I turned to the side thinking you were there I realized you never were….you were simply a ghost in my time of need. As I weather the current storm I draw on my own strength and realize just how strong I am. Now I know why you needed it so.
Remember, I loved you from the depth of my soul. I will never forget nor will I ever regret, I just know it is time for my life to move to a new place. A place of peace and understanding a place where I can feel the breeze. I have great sadness just as I have great peace. You too shall find your way and learn from yourself. I gave so much, expecting nothing in return, now it’s time for me to move on and grasp what is waiting. My world will continue to be filled with great happiness and laughter as I expect nothing less. In time the hurt will fade, but the memories will live on forever in my heart.
INNOCENT
When I watch my middle son, he is so innocent. He waves his hands and is captured inside of his own world. He has not a care about this crazy outside world bustling around him. All’s he knows is love and how to love and be loved. He smiles when he is happy, he cries when he is sad, he laughs out loud for no reason…simply because. As I watch this I think for a brief second what an easy life. Then I am reminded of all he has been through, all he has missed out on. The life I dreamed we would have has never been, nor will it ever be. Life passes us by and Eric continues to look at his hands and be caught up in “his world”.
When I grieve for what could have been, I am reminded that what I do have is priceless. I never thought I would have a child so pure. I have been truly blessed. Autism can be is 
BEAUTIFUL!
ARRESTED
The following were arrested this week just to make me smile!
SAY
Oh please dear Lord, say it isn’t so…my life has become so mundane I can hardly bear to live it at this moment. Sick kids, 100 degree Texas heat, family drama and the list goes on and on. I need my good life back. The life I love and cherish. The life I enjoy, the life that makes me smile and laugh out loud. Where oh where did my old life go and who the hell thought so much of themselves to replace my fabulous old life with this train wreck of a new one! Must I beg to retrieve my old danceable life? Okay, I will beg, I will get down on the hot pavement on one knee and beg for my old wonderful, pleasant, fast, drinkable life to just rush back in and set me free!
TODAY
Today is the day before my own National Holiday…the day before my birthday…I celebrate my birth with great passion. Anyone who has known me for at least a minute knows this. Tonight Leslie and I will be going downtown to celebrate. You just never know what we might find or get into. We have known one another for over 40 years…no I will not share how old I am for I am not sure my age this year…any hoo…I will let you know what we find, what we do, who we find, no not who we do as we are both married! Dirty minds you…
So remember tomorrow, take the day off! It’s my BIRTHDAY!
Seaweed
Sometimes do you feel like you are walking a tight rope with nothing to catch you? I am at that place right now. I have no jingle in my bell, I don’t feel festive at all and I feel like I am drowning and I am trying to reach the surface only to be caught in seaweed! I know, “this too shall pass”, but I need it to helicopter out of here…I am a mother, a wife, a daughter and a ginga and I have things to do…my life has become a game of Twister and I am the only one playing.
TEETERING ON THE EDGE... 