When I watch my middle son, he is so innocent. He waves his hands and is captured inside of his own world. He has not a care about this crazy outside world bustling around him. All’s he knows is love and how to love and be loved. He smiles when he is happy, he cries when he is sad, he laughs out loud for no reason…simply because. As I watch this I think for a brief second what an easy life. Then I am reminded of all he has been through, all he has missed out on. The life I dreamed we would have has never been, nor will it ever be. Life passes us by and Eric continues to look at his hands and be caught up in “his world”.
When I grieve for what could have been, I am reminded that what I do have is priceless. I never thought I would have a child so pure. I have been truly blessed. Autism can be is BEAUTIFUL!