GREEN

I miss my son. I will never see him or hear him again on this earth. I’m envious of those who have this privilege. It’s unfair and heart wrenching.

I feel true green envy. I cover my ears as I don’t want to hear their joy. I close my eyes as I don’t want to see their happiness. It hurts my soul.

Uncomfortable feelings and reactions are blazing present. I can’t hide them. They are real, front and center.

My heart hurts, I can feel my eyes fill with tears, my chest tightens with pain. I’m jealous, it’s ugly. My jaw tightens. I just don’t have any happiness for your happiness today. Please just move along…

I miss my son. I will never see him or hear him again on this earth. I’m envious of those who have this privilege. It’s unfair and heart wrenching.

I feel true green envy. I cover my ears as I don’t want to hear their joy. I close my eyes as I don’t want to see their happiness. It hurts my soul.

Uncomfortable feelings and reactions are blazing present. I can’t hide them. They are real, front and center.

My heart hurts, I can feel my eyes fill with tears, my chest tightens with pain. I’m jealous, it’s ugly. My jaw tightens. I just don’t have any happiness for your happiness today. Please just move along…

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  1. I’m sorry for your loss and can’t begin to know the pain you must feel. But I am here if you need me. You are not alone. xoxo

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