Six years…
It's hard to believe. I remember the day so vividly. I remember exactly what I was wearing, exactly where I was…the exact moment…
My life forever changed.
I was not prepared to lose my child. It has knocked the life out of me. I have found myself questioning so many things, everything.
My joy has been abducted. I search and search for it. Vanished….
I can feel my heart beat, my mind rushes with emotion. I have to remind myself, "Breathe, just breath". Some days I don't want to breathe, I want to just hold my breath until my heart calms…
I realize calm is so so far away.
Raindrops fall from my eyes…
Death is forever and forever is a long long time…
Forever I will love you my first born son…


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