ESCAPE

Depression, oh the dark evil word no one wants to utter.  Not until someone can handle no more and they feel pressed against a wall with no other option then to just not “be” anymore.

It is like fighting something so huge it overtakes not only your mind,  but your soul.  You become physically exhausted from the battle smoldering in your brain.  Before you can grasp your footing you are consumed with an evil force words can not explain.

You don’t want to feel darkness, you truly are grasping at whatever you can to take you out of this dark place.   Depression is like a vice grip on the mind and soul.  It will squeeze until you literally can not function.  It is very hard to face the reality you can’t just be “happy”.  The thought becomes overwhelming.  You find yourself sinking into a darkness you can’t explain, you can’t climb out of, you can’t control.  It is an evil  with  tentacles of inescapable force that grip your mind and your soul.

Darkness is exhausting.  You know “it” is coming like a tsunami.  You can feel the rush flooding through your entire body.  There is truly no escape. You can feel the roar of the sea of darkness in your ear, but you have no wisdom on how to muffle the sound or escape the force. You brace yourself as you know “it”  is rushing to your soul. You learn through the years  how to navigate the waves.  You fight with all your being to keep your mind and body as your own. To others you appear happy and content, but inside you are twisted and broken.

Depression is a beast.  Everyday you fight to save your mind and soul….To save your “life”…

RIP Robin Williams…Hugs to your family…