When happiness implode’s your heart, the fullness overtakes you and makes the smile on your face unable to disappear. Watching my nieces and nephews and all the kids who I love so dear go to Prom and get married has been one of the greatest joys of my life. These past few weeks it has been a wave of pure joy and everyone has caught it! It makes me want to hug them so tight I may never let go and it takes our breath away. The love for them is intoxicating. Words are not big enough to explain how my heart burst’s with joy for them. The beauty, the smile, the glow of it all will simply overtake you.
In the shadow of all the bliss, a little piece of my heart breaks as this should be my Eric’s time to do all these things as well. The day will never come, and if I give it a second to take over my mind, the heart-break becomes almost unbearable. The tears flow, my body jerks as I sob with a pain so deep it tears my soul. Then I remember all I have to be thankful for and how blessed I am to have been given such a gift and I know my life is exactly as it should be. It doesn’t make the heart-break less painful, but it does make it oh so much more bearable. It’s my life…and my life is a great adventure.
The give and take in this life is what keeps us going, makes us strong and builds the love we have for one another. The love I feel comes from a place deep within. It is nourished and guarded. With the beauty of those I love comes a deep committment and passion from the depth of my soul.